The Human Ape
The Fifth Great Ape
A Study of Human Behaviour from the unique perspective of Aspergers Syndrome
School Days
Infants school was for the most part uneventful but in junior school the fellow pupils & teachers started noticing the difference in my behaviour & IQ & as such started acting upon it.
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In school a healthy inquisitive mind was perceived as a trouble maker from the teachers perspective & was was 'disobedient' & 'unruly' merely for asking questions & from the pupils the ostracizing & bullying started immediately. Autism was never mentioned even though I had all the behavioural hall marks of the Aspergers Syndrome condition.
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Morton Park Junior School
I attended Morton Park Junior School from 5 years old to 11 & early on the other children quickly noticed the vulnerably I had from having Aspergers Syndrome. Their behaviour turned from friendship very quickly to violence & bullying, one pupil used to wait for me walking home so he could punch me in an attempt to break my nose, I was about 6 or 7 years old at the time, even though the school was notified by my parents after returning home with a bloody nose. It didn't stop, indeed it actually made it worse.
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This aside though this shows you that humans even at the age of 5 years have already become bullies, already ostracizing difference & are already following their inherited genetic code. This is clearly visible in the way they interpret someone with vulnerably or what they perceive as vulnerable as something to exploit, something to dominate. This shows you how deeply imbedded this behaviour is into the DNA of the NT Human.
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At no point did the teachers try to stop this behaviour of the children towards me & others with difference, indeed I got the impression it was just 'how it was' & let it be.
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Morton Secondary School
The real challenge however came from when I attended secondary school. The bullying started immediately & once again the teachers did nothing. The pupils were left unchained to do whatever they wanted.
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Morton Secondary School was a hive of tribal hierarchical ape behaviour, where the bullies went around preying on who they perceived as weak or vulnerable indeed they were free to do so as the teachers looked on. The teachers seemed more interested in having affairs with other teachers & their own ego's being stroked of course.
Again the teachers never noticed any Autistic traits in me.
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My days between the lessons there were spent hiding by my self in all the dark nooks & crannies of the school structure to avoid the bullies & I developed another behaviour as to walk about purposely with meaning as if I was heading somewhere, or had a errand or a job to do. This for the most part deflected the tyrants & bullies that infested this school away from me, another technique I devised was appear 1 or 2 minutes just before the lesson started that way there was less time outside of the lesson class's waiting to go in and consequently less 'wounded prey' to the instigators of the violence.
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To the pupils there I was an easy target, I had none or very little theory of mind & having aspergers to them I appeared vulnerable & effectively fair game. Their would be no repercussions & I believed most things people told me after all I had no reason not to believe them.. So to them i was seen as an idiot even though in all probabilities I had twice or three times their IQ.
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Morton school was a great example to what psychologists belief when they say that children and teenagers are effectively psychopaths & act like that! They develop over time and learn to control these tendencies or one would hope they did. Some however do not & stay in the crazy insane cruel world of psychopathy, with no way to relate to the damage they are doing to others & devoid of any empathy. The psychopathy in the pupils was the thing that stuck in my mind the most, they seem to be completely unaware of the damage, pain or hurt they were implementing onto others, and if some did they simply didn't care.
It was a ruthless dog eat dog environment which was portrayed as education, but we now know the school process & education is nothing more than programming that is preparing people for the work place. Psychologists refer to education as 'Social Conditioning'
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Trying to interact or strike a relationship with these children/adults was futile, there was a clear IQ mismatch, In their minds I was already placed in their out group in short it was futile whatever I attempted they had already made their judgment & their behaviour mirrored that hasty flawed belief. Blinded by their own over inflated egos & fuelled on by their own irrational illogical emotions they were free to do whatever they wished.
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The top ranking Children as with other primate groups always had an army of sycophants following them willing and able to do any deed the top ranking children wanted if it made them look good or took them up a step of the illusionary social ladder. Again with little or no introspection this behaviour by the children seemed to be happening on an almost subconscious level, they seemed to just to blindly follow their irrational ever changing emotions without ever stopping or indeed having the ability to question of the morality of their behaviour.
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Long after leaving this school decades later I ran into a few of the people that were pupils at this school & the shocking thing was they hadn't changed at all. They were still sarcastic, arrogant, egotistical & deeply critical of others appearance & still bullies. Nothing had changed, it was perhaps Aspergers naivety on my part thinking that given time they would of evolved past the stage of abuse & them primitive cruel ape traits they had showed so clearly in school. Bullying is sadly imbedded into the dna of most NT Humans.. The ability to prey on perceived weakness fuelled by an innate intolerance of difference & with self actualisation unachievable, little or no introspection & you have a recipe for disaster.. Bullying wont end through campaigns or slogans it will only come about when Neuro typical humans evolve & until that happens people with the Asperger's is condition that have constant negative interactions, such as being bullied repeatedly which merely fuels the misanthropic attitude will have to wait for NT Humans to evolve.
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Please note all the incidences & events mentioned on this site actually occurred and while I stand by these recollections wholeheartedly I must mention however, although I have been researching & studying Genetics, Anthropology, Primate behaviour for over a decade now its still however my objective opinion based on that research that the behaviour shown by these Neuro Typical Humans mentioned predominantly originates from their primate based genetically driven behaviour patterns & none or little nurture from their parents. This site was not built with the intent to purposely offend & upset people but to document and observe Neuro Typical Human behaviour through the perception of someone with Aspergers Syndrome. All Photographs of people were taking in public where there is no expectation of privacy.
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